Tomorrow is a new day...and we're in a new YEAR!

So tomorrow marks a BIG day for me fellow bloggers! I am beginning a new school with a new environment and everything. Things are beginning to look up for me. Aside from how completely nervous I am, I know all is well and everything will be okay. 2010 was an extremely interesting year for me.

I met new people and did things I never thought I would. I fell out of love and madly into it. I still find myself having a hard time getting out of it, but at the end of the day I know I have learned from it and things will look up and get better for me...and him.

Many people ask me about him a lot. not knowing who he is or anything. And a lot of people have comments about him without even knowing him. Therefore, you can not judge someone whom you do not even know. You don't know anything about this person. Not like i do...And i am not saying I know all there is to know. I learn something new every time i am with him. He was honestly the first person I ever think I loved. Even if he didn't feel the same way about me like I did towards him....i know there was something there. I am not sorry I met him because he taught me a lot about myself.

I used to have the biggest self doubt ever. He changed that. He told me that there was so much more to me than I saw....in so many words ;) He helped me as much as could and to the best of his abilities. He was just always there for me when I needed someone to talk to. And he showed me I shouldn't let people walk all over me either. I refuse to let people talk down about him to me just because of what we have been through together....that's between us....not everyone plus 2.

But I now know there is no such thing as that guy you see in the movies ladies. I mean...if you think you have that then kudos to you....but come on....Not all of us are THAT lucky. Sure...he holds open the doors for you and pays. And who can complain? But there is not such thing as that perfect guy. Now guys don't think I am bashing you. There also is no such thing as the perfect girl. Hell, we have more issues than you do I think. We can never make up our minds...so in conclusion to that statement...we are all fucked up. (excuse my french).

Anyways, back to what I was talking about. If you are reading this (you know who you are), then you know how I feel. And you know it "takes time". As do I. And I love you. And I always will. My heart will never be the same and I wouldn't want it any other way. I am glad I met you. I am glad I kissed you. And I am glad for EVERYTHING else.

I know at this point you are wondering what this blog is even about. Well I decided I have felt like I don't have many to talk to that actually understand how I am feeling so I am going to just type things out from now on. Tomorrow is January 3rd, 2011. And I am going to make 2011 my bitch. I am going to make up for everything THIS YEAR. For myself.

This is the year of Courtney Jessie. So watch out :)

Till tomorrow. :)

Peace <3